apologize

Here with i apologize
coz seems that i can't close this blog
i still need a place to show my feelings
since i cant say that to anybody... (coz they ignore me)
i think this is the best place for me to say what i feel in my heart
so...
i will still update this blog :)

10-12-10

9... 10....
on 9 and 10 every month....
you will meet the different me
on that date....
i will be on down mode
down.. until the lowest point

i cant forget what happened on that day
09 - 07 - 10
the day when you propose me
10 - 09 - 10
the day when you leave me

i wish for a miracle....
another 09 or 10
the date when you come back... to me...
and the date... when we re-united together...forever

Koisuru Otome

I told you about my growing love
And you gave me a big nod
When I held your left hand for the first time
You were trembling more than me
You're so shy
You always run too fast
It worried me, because I was plotting
"If we're in love, let's fool around"

"My soul mate" "My prince on the white horse"
Embarrassed, you pay no attention
I want you to tell me what matters to you
I love you so much I can't help it

You slowly, slowly hold me
As you smile, your heartbeat is my rhythm
I love you, I love you so much, we'll be together forever
I'm the only one for you, my love

At some point, I've come to look
Looking at your profile
When I noticed that you were blushing
And begged you for a kiss, you got mad at me

To be honest, sometimes I want you to give me a big compliment
I'm having fun, floating again
But I know without a doubt that I love you
I love you so much it's embarrassing

Slowly, slowly, it guides our hands
Our wonderful melody
I love you, I love you so much, we'll be together forever
You're the only one for me, my love

Slowly, slowly, hold up your hands
The melody will reach you, my love
I love you, I love you so much, I'll say it again and again
I love you, yeah, you

Slowly...the melody will reach you
I love you, I love you so much, we'll be together forever
I'm the only one for you, my love
I'm the only one (more)


by : ikimono gakkari <3

Farewell?

Well...
im thinking to close this blog
i dont know.... but its so painful writing this blog
well.. of course ...
whenever i think about him its sooo painful T^T
but what can i do?
he has my heart T^T

all i can wish now... he will back soon ..
wish me luck guys

Ride back

Even though he’s smiling I realize I’m thinking of you
And as I hold this hand, I can feel your warmth

Even if I tear out the memories and chase them out of my heart
Even if I kick away
I still think of you

Now,
As time goes by and the season changes
As that smile turns into misty white
My heart will not forget you

Even if we cannot meet again

Even if I throw away the photo of us smiling
Even if I hide my overflowing feelings
My heart will not forget
The memories of you




by : younha 

RANT 2

i start my day with a deep sigh
again.. i was dreaming of u last nite
again.. i cried

sometimes i feel tired waiting for you
but my heart told me to keep waiting for you
my brain says : just give it up
but my heart says : dont give up

ne... are you happy there?

thats all i wanna know n i wish for

just be happy there
live your life
no need to think about me
even i suffering.. all that i want just ur happiness

let me die here... in a waiting

Finally I Found You

"Finally I Found You"
thats a word that i wish i can say....
i miss you so much...
i keep awake in the middle of night just to check whether you already back or not
but what that i got?
NOTHING

I wish someday when i awake i can found you

I dont know what to say anymore
its so random.. :)

remember....
I will always waiting for you FOREVER
but i CANT life FOREVER

I Love You

untitled 2

when i far away from you...
there is a question occurred in my mind
is that really in ur mind, its only me who reigns?

will this forever?

when i'm near you
my little heart whisper
is it true only me you love?

will this forever
or just simply

i gave you everything
eternal love
created just for you
this all should be the beautiful beginning for me

should i ask
for i know the answer?

DREAM

Everyday... I live in dream
Wishing that someday can meet my true love
Some one who will love me the way I am
I thought its impossible,
But it become possible when I meet u

The day I met you, my world start to revolve
Each day I felt like in heaven
Each kiss and each hugs makes me can't let you go
Makes me can't live without you
You makes my dream come true

And......
My nightmare came
You leave me alone here
I'm back to love in a dream
A nightmare that you won't come back to me again

And someday I think and decide to back to live in my dream
Dreaming that you will back to me again
Dreaming that you will pull me into your embrace and never ever let me go any more

Until I realised
That all of it just a dream, ILLUSION
You just my dream that won't come true in my life

But.....
Even you just a dream, illusion
I'm glad that I met you.
And I will always love you,
Zane

THANK YOU

Thank you for come into my life
Thank you for being my friend
Thank you for always cheer me up
Thank you for always be here when im sad
Thank you for always makes me smile

Thank you for making me thinking of you each day
Thank you for making me worried of you each day
Thank you for making me cant sleep everynite

Thank you for showing me what love is
Thank you for makes me feel what true love is
Thank your for showering me with love
Thank you for teaching me how to love someone sincenery
Thank you for making me love you

Thank you for the chance that u give to me for loving you
Thank you for the time that u give me
Thank you for all happiness i feel when im with you


Thank you for everything

I love you Zane ^^

Your Poem

A friend is a person

to laugh and cry with,

An inspiration,

Someone who lends a helping hand,

though friends may not be forever,

And they may not end up together,

the memories of a true friendship will

last forever.

A friend is not a shadow nor a servant

But someone who hold

a piece of a person in his heart.

Someone who shares a smile,

Someone who brightens up your day

What makes a person a friend?

Is by saying your Love will stay

This is a poem you show me when i sad XD

now i have to read it again. Coz u make me sad by vanished like this

Coma back home soon zane

im waiting

Could it be love

I stunned when i saw you
Your smile
makes my heart skipped a beat


Could it be love?
The feeling of love that already exist since I met him


oh, is it love that appears between you and me?
and will it be exist until the die separate us?


it will never be another in my life
my love only for you
wont turn anymore 

WINDY NIGHT

In the windy night
My  mind filled with you
your smile
your laugh
your hugs
your kiss
All that i cant have anymore

In the windy night
i feel my tears falling
uncountable
my heart crying.. screaming... craving for you


In the windy night
I hear your voice
I see your shadow
I try to reach you.. but i cant

I miss you
I miss you so much

But all i can do now just pray, cry and wish
That you can come back someday
in one windy night

LOW QUALITY POEM
IM SORRY ALL *BOW*

"Some Boys aren't jerks"

ITS NOT MINE

I JUST REPOST IT FROM MY FRIENDS , KUCHIKI KUROSAKI ^^

Girl: Slow down, I'm scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No its not.


Girl:Please its too scary!


Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine I love you.


Girl:Slow down!


Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
Girl : *hugs him*


Guy: Can you take my helmet off and put it on yourself? Its bugging me.
Girl: Alright, now slow down
Guy: I love you babe


(in the paper the next day):
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on it, but only 1 had survived.


The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, then he had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.


Guys Post This As This As "I would do this for my girl "
Girls Post This As "Some Boys aren't jerks"




Man... honestly i crying when i read this

UNTIL THE DAY WE MEET

I have one heart
Its so fragile and easy to broken
I keep it safely in its place
until i found the right person to keep it


And i met you
Someone who i trust to keep my heart forever
I believe in you
so i give you my only heart
Nothing left in me

I told you :
My heart is just one
Only to love you
becareful, Its fragile
Dont broke it... Coz i will die

You smile and said :
Don't worry, i will keep it in the right place
I wont broke it
You wont die
coz i also give you my heart
keep it, i just have one too

I smile
I take you heart and put it in the place where my heart used to be
With this, WE ARE CONNECTED

Now,
You leave me here
Alone, broken and heartless
Uncountable tears fell
Unhealed wound created

You bring my heart away with you
and also your heart that you gave to me

Im here.. Heartless

But....
I wont give up
I believe in you
I believe that someday ...
You will back...
As you promise me

So.....
I will always wait for you
Until the day we meet

Until the day i die

i tried to undrestand what happened when the heart no longer can talk
may be you happiness isnt with me
let all of this become memories

forgeting all the love story
leave my soul wounded and broken

until the day i die
i wont forget you
until the end of my life
my love only for you

until my last breath
you will always in my heart
cant be replaced
even everything is vanished

Stay by me ^^

I don’t know when it all started
When my head became dizzy with thoughts of you

Is it love?
My heart keeps saying it loves you
It screams out for the whole world to hear

I wanted to show you how I feel
The only way would be for you to become me

I’m already inside of you
Just like you’re inside of me

To each other
We may already be too accustomed

I’ll be with you, I’ll only give you fond memories
Even the shortest moments without you make me uneasy
Please stay by me~

I WILL ALWAYS WAIT FOR YOU

I will wait for u as u want me to do. 3 months.

u put on ur stat something i dont like and i said: Ur stat!

and u answee me assuring me : calm down angel im saying 'just in case'

im mad : I still doNt like it

then u said : hahaah then dont like it :p relax

since u r a bad boy : U. . . *pinch ur ear* u said it just a ordinary day. Like usual day.

and u promise me : hahaha well dont worry im gonna be fine

feel a lil relax, i asked : How long u neEd to recover? And be aBLe to ol?

and u said : 3 months i guess cuz my heart needs alot of time

and i said : Phew. Then proMise me u will tell me when u r back.

and u promise me again : ofc i will silly

i also make promise : Hm. 3 mth withouT u. I will close my wall. I will back when u r back. 3 mths. January isnt it?

and with a smile u said : hahaha calm down no need for all this silly yup

andi told u the reason : Thats ok. U r the oNLy reasoN tht i stay here. If u r nOt here. I woNt be here toO. I will use fb 4 playing game. And will bAck when x mas, newYear. And my bday.

again, u promise me : haha i will spend ur bday with u in ur country for real.

i ask : really?

u said : yups. and u hug me.

i tell you : Im glad. . . I cAnt wait 4 that. BuT. My bday is in dEc.

u said : i know but we will celeb it on jan.

then i fell asleep and wake up and said : buT i doNt wanNa skip my chance to talk with u. Im goNna life without u in 3 month, u knOw that?!

and u make another promise : yes i know but then u will spend the rest of ur life with me *kiss ur lips again*

but i said again : yeah buT still, i hv to faCe that 3 mths 1st.

and u answer me patiently :  shhhh calm down ok u can consider me here im gonna be with u always *kiss ur lips* remmber that i love u angel

i keep stubborn as always and said : 3 mths isnt short.

and with smile u said and promise me :  it will pass quickly dont worry.

i tried to make a joke : I cAnt imagine *chuckLes* we will taLk again next year. Well january 2011 :p

and u answer it with another joke : hahaahah it will be fine u can have a substitute bf if u want until i come back:p

and im pissed off : Nye. Like i could divide my feelings

and as ur last message and ur last promise u said : hahaahh my pleasure :p well im leaving to set my things and meet my family and friends .take care angel and in both case i love u and wish u always a happy life and i will be back soon *kiss ur lips* bye bye my love

WHY SHOULD I BELIEVE WHAT PEOPLE SAID ABOUT U

I JUST BELIEVE IN U

U WONT DENY UR PROMISE

I WILL ALWAYS WAIT FOR YOU ZANE

I LOVE YOU

Rang Wo Ai Ni - Let Me Love You

This stable feeling
Your appearance has shattered its tranquility
I was shaken and have closed my heart
The cold mountain and snow are melting away

Going back to when we met for the first time
The wind was blewing the beauty of loneliness
Why did the grey sky show no _expression
[when] The rain [was] pouring in your heart?

Let me love you
[Let] There be no more self
The depth of the darkness has absorbed all the broken lights and shadow
Honestly, even if [my] soul has lost all opportunities
So long as [we may] embrace quickly for a silent understanding 

Let me love you
[To] Proof that there's miracle
In the wilderness of the heart
[As long as I] Have you in the depth of [my] soul
I am willing to give up all the smiles in the world 
The happiness [may be] far away, but the hearts grow fonder

The past is never wiped away
[For it's] Strongly [kept] in memory like a nightmare that never goes away
My tears overcast your sky
The rain keeps falling [as] the heart [is] hurting

The wind seems like a brush watching over me
Your _expression unexpectedly [appears] along with the wind
For the first time, my heart draws a rainbow
Because of you, I [learn to] believe

Let me love you
[Let] There be no more self
The depth of the darkness has absorbed all the broken lights and shadow
Honestly, even if [my] soul has lost all opportunities
So long as [we may] embrace quickly for a silent understanding 

Let me love you
[To] Proof that there's miracle
In the wilderness of the heart
[As long as I] Have you in the depth of [my] soul
I am willing to give up all the smiles in the world 
The happiness [may be] far away, but the hearts grow fonder

Let me love you for another century

Right here waiting for you - Richard Marx

Oceans apart day after day 
And I slowly go insane 
I hear your voice on the line 
But it doesn't stop the pain 

If I see you next to never 
How can we say forever 

Wherever you go 
Whatever you do 
I will be right here waiting for you 
Whatever it takes 
Or how my heart breaks 
I will be right here waiting for you 

I took for granted, all the times 
That I though would last somehow 
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears 
But I can't get near you now 

Oh, can't you see it baby 
You've got me goin' CrAzY 

Wherever you go 
Whatever you do 
I will be right here waiting for you 
Whatever it takes 
Or how my heart breaks 
I will be right here waiting for you 

I wonder how we can survive 
This romance 
But in the end if I'm with you 
I'll take the chance 

Oh, can't you see it baby 
You've got me goin' cRaZy 

Wherever you go 
Whatever you do 
I will be right here waiting for you 
Whatever it takes 
Or how my heart breaks 
I will be right here waiting for you the official video